Medication Woes
My meds were accidentally reduced by 18mg – it's thrown me back, but it shows how much has changed.
Every day I take my medication. I’m currently in my titration phase, so we’re trying to find the optimum strength that doesn’t lead to side effects. The medication I take can go up to 108mg. I’m currently on 72mg. Except… I’ve dropped down to 54mg while I wait for my new prescription.
Shivers? Check. Sweats? Check. Unable to leave bed? Check. Forgetting I have a cat who needs to be fed? Check. Bad stomach? Check. Lunch? An egg sandwich, and I nearly fainted making it!
It’s useful, ultimately. While I’m living with my parents, I have the safety to take the blow to my psyche and mood that comes with this. But bloody hell, I thought I’d given up hangovers and comedowns!
It’s proof that the meds work.
My mood has drastically changed.
When I’m medicated I don’t think of ideation - and I realise now that those thoughts are hovering outside my curtained bedroom window, that I must have had them almost every day before. I notice them as ‘odd’. So hey, turns out they really do help with emotional regulation as well as the other more conventional parts of ADHD.
Here’s to tomorrow, when I should be balanced back on the lower dose, waiting for the new pills.
What helps: chocolate, television that I love, sleep, water, and drawing.
I’m not a good drawer. But it helps to process things.
And here’s a really rubbish one for you:
Max
That's definitely not a rubbish one!